Been working on this one for a while - went through many iterations, but just finished and put it up!

It's a super fun mix between Hip-Hop and Drum & Bass! Lots of super-fun melodies and chill chords, so I hope you enjoy listening to it as much as we did making it!

Listen to it now on Newgrounds or Youtube!

Thank you!

At the time this was posted, I'm making Drum 'n Bass in Ableton Live, Live on Twitch.tv and YouTube!

Specifically, I'm remaking Pro 1989. Come and listen!

Edit: Stream over! Thank you for watching.

Unfortunately, I forgot to include the commissioner of Long Time - my fault, so I'm making a post here:

Check out VTM06_Vipes, a wonderful Robot VTuber who does gaming content on his Twitch Channel, on which he streams regularly! Vipes also has a Twitter page and a YouTube page, where you can see highlights of his streams!

Check him out - he's super cool and a great friend.

I'm going to be playing my music at the Q.arma building in Minneapolis at 12:00 PM on Saturday, May 21st! I have a 45 minute selection of music to play, and I'm very excited for people to hear it all!

If you're in the area and are going to Art-A-Whirl, I invite you to join me!

More Info: https://fb.me/e/31hBGQ78w

I've set up a Ko-fi page! I imagined some of the people who follow me might want to give me a bit of support.

No monetary support is required. I'd kick myself if I didn't make a big point of this; you do not have to pay me a damn thing. I don't sell my music as a product for money, so this is for those of you that think I deserve a bit more. Thank you!

Thank you for listening to my music, for following me, and for leaving me an occasional review when you can. I read everything - it all helps. Keep yourself sane!

There's a good reason I haven't done much of anything since 797 - I've been trying to get off a rollercoaster of depression and anxiety. I thought I did a few times, but it kept swinging back. Sometimes, with striking force.

Mainly, I've been anxious about my own existence.

Afraid I'm not good enough, both musically and socially. That I'll always be a subpar musician, and that I'll be cursed to forever stumble over my own words in an effort to say much of anything.

Afraid of my future. That I'll never amount to anything, that music simply won't work out and I'll have to find a job as a programmer or journalist or - if worst comes to worst - stuck working at Mickey D's.

Afraid of my past. That I've been a failure, due to me not having done much in the first 20 years of my existence, that I've wasted that time sitting on a computer playing stupid games.

Last night, though, I took a trip to Minneapolis (For clarification, 'somewhere cold' means Minnesota. It's damn cold here.)

I was up there to have dinner with family. While I was there, I proved to myself that I'm not a shitty musician. Listening to my music on the way there and back, I realized that I'm pretty good, I just need to find the right inspiration. Music isn't impossible to me, and the nearly seven years that I spent developing my skills haven't gone to waste. I also proved that, despite my Asperger's, I'm enthusiastic, energetic, and can definitely hold a good conversation. In fact, I was afraid a couple times that I was talking too much.

This gets to something important for me: I realized I have two heads. One is my 'thinking' head - the one I imagine my situations in. The one where I'm constantly thinking 'what if?'. In this head, I'm definitely not the best talker. I stumble often, pausing often enough to be awkward. Sure, I can come up with some neat things to say, but it's often enough that I'm shy, or that I have to stop thinking because of a situation gone south. It's this head that I often view myself with, because I don't have too many opportunities to experience my other head.

My other head is my 'real' head, the head I actually go outside with. It's awkward, too, but it's not as bad as I think it is. I can hold a conversation, for one. I can talk to people! I can come up with things to say, and I can listen very well. I also have an interesting personality. I like to talk about myself and what I'm interested in - as well as what other people are interested in. I'm energetic, enthusiastic, and love being myself.

I proved to myself that conversation is less of a 'thinking' thing and more of a 'doing' thing. It comes naturally, and I don't have to 'think' about what to say to say things that work (but that doesn't mean I talk without thinking. I definitely have a filter, even if it's over- or under-active at times.)

One thing about Minneapolis is that it's huge. It's not New York, and it's not even a million people strong. What it is though is a massive cultural center. Whenever I go there, I'm brought to a place in my head I don't often visit. This place is open; it's vibrant. It's full of life. It's among the places with the most depth in my head, if it isn't the top contender. It has an awesome effect on my well-being; depression and anxiety, while they still certainly exist, have a harder time taking over me. It's almost inspiring. Being in such a beautiful place as Minneapolis gives me a beautiful feeling, one that's affected my music and helped keep me sane. It's very good at pushing away horrid thoughts and helping me develop a sort of barrier or shield, because of how sane I feel, how capable I am of self-control.

What this whole stupid long post means is that I've been feeling like shit. I've been trying to get out of it, and tonight has definitely helped. I keep making new song ideas, but none of them have been 'good enough' to finish up and post. I'm hoping to get that changed, that I might be able to make something quick to post. I've also been considering that I might give the daily songs another try, but there's no promises on that.

(I'm hoping this doesn't come off as pompous or self-centered. I thought this would be a good opportunity to talk about my mental health, that it might help others in the process.)

Thank you for reading! Thank you for listening, and thank you for following up on me. Stay sane!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zNTaVTMoNTk

(Also, song coming out today or tomorrow!)

My headphones are here! I'll see if I can upload a song tomorrow morning/midday to break 'em in. Thank you!

For the past many months I've been using my dad's old pair of Turtle Beach headphones for a vast majority of my mixing. Frankly, they're terrible. They clip if I make 'em slightly loud, and they have a bass slider that makes things even fuckier. I'm pretty sure it's been having a negative effect on the quality of my mixes. It's definitely had a strange effect on my sanity, anyhow - they're not that comfortable either, and they're broken.

So, recently, I ordered a Sennheiser HD 6XX from drop.com, with the hope that it helps my sanity and the quality of my mixes. I'm not entirely sure when they're coming in, unfortunately, so until then I'll do my best with what I've got.

Also, I've considered opening a Patreon account. For that, though, I need feedback - would people pay me to help me keep going and making neat tunes? I'm fairly new to this kinda thing, so the more feedback I get the better things are gonna go. Of course, honestly is the best way to go. If you don't wanna pay me, that's perfectly acceptable.

Thank you!

Edit; I'm also going to take a couple-days break. I'm busy during Christmas, and a break would help my sanity. I'll be back after Christmas!

Been going back and forth to myself since I stopped, on whether I should start again. Suddenly, the 7th rolled around and it was 7:00 PM, so I kinda just jumped back into it. Round two! Here we go.